Goodbye So Many

Today is the first day of the rest of my life. At least that is what they say. For me, I believe it needs to be. It needs to be a day of change. Time to throw out the all the things clouding my life and prepare for some internal sunshine. I am missing the warmth and vitality that use to shine outward from me. I wonder if aging is tarnishing me or stress is rusting me out. I know I need to put a stop to this pretty quick because I can hear the clock ticking. It is reminding me that I am finite. Time is running against me. I can picture the sands in an hourglass moving full speed taking my life force with them. Then, I pause and look at the calendar.

For the past several months, I have been tending to many things. It is my nature to have too much to do. I like so many things, have so many projects and help so many people that sometimes I get lost in the mix. I have struggled for years with the so many this and the so many that. Now, it has grown to the so many these and the so many those. It is definitely time to cut back and down.

As a natural organizer and goal setter, you would think that this would be easy. No. Definitely not! It feels a little like hoarding or playing king of the hill with all my so manys. Which do I let go and which ones get to stay?

Thank goodness I have skills. Skills to recognize that today needs to be the first day, that I have to set realistic limitations/goals and that self-motivation needs to flow through me like specialized bodily fluid that delivers the necessary energy for my internal sunshine to blaze ever so brightly.

Today, I promise myself to take that first step and decide what I want my life to look like and what I need to do to get there. It may be one small step, but a freeing one. And a goodbye to a weighted life and so many.

Stay sweet 'n smile............................Mz.